Eyes

I spent some minutes with the mirror today.
Not trying to control my hair
Or primp for an outing.
Just me,
With nothing but my face.
I looked at my eyes
for the first time in a while.
Really looked into them
and tried to figure out what was going on
behind the traitorous orbs.
They've been greener lately.
I knew something was up.
You may be thinking this sounds strange,
But it makes sense to me.
If you are getting to know someone,
Eyes are so important.
They flash with emotion.
They are the window to the inner us.
So when I am trying to find me,
I talk to my eyes
And see what they do.
Talking to ones self is considered crazy by most.
Or at the very least pathetic.
But you  know,
I need to know myself
If I want to know others.
If I don't know who I am in my own eyes
Then I end up caring too much
Who other people think I am.
What I found wasn't disturbing.
It wasn't exciting.
It was just...
Me.
And I missed Me.
So I smiled.
And I liked my smile
Because it was real.
It was like seeing an old friend.
I'm going to remind myself
To get to know mysself more often.