That Moment

You know that moment? That Moment? I've had many, really.

In That Moment, you know that everything is changing inside of you. some for good, sometimes bad. but it's a choice you've made, or a decision someone made for you that will change your life forever.

That Moment. I stood silently. Cascading drops of silent heartbreak, shaking, trembling hands and legs keeping me anchored to the ground I didn't want to be on. the cursed, cold, half frozen ground. Half frozen, but almost alive with the grief that swirled in my stomach and almost pulled me under. scentless flowers, and ribbons decorating death's cold metal surface. beautiful and ugly and haunting. unforgettable. I can't remember if anyone was touching me or not. my skin was as numb as my soul. I remember the spike of my high heels sinking into the ground, and hoping the rest of me would follow. into the ground so I didn't have to see this anymore. That moment, I stopped. I turned around, and took a last glimpse of what I'll never see again lowered into the earth. That moment a part of me stopped beating to get out, and lay cold inside.


That Moment. The poison I thought would soothe my wounds was so close to my lips. His eyes begging me for a taste, hands securely in my own. Just a taste, Right? I thought. Every promise I'd ever made ran trough the window of my mind. Every word I'd read, heard, or spoken drifted in the air between us. He was waiting for me. He knew that if he made the first move, and it ended badly I could blame him for it. he was smarter then that. My toes barely touched the ground, my head was far above, and my heart was sinking far beneath. I counted to ten, but only half a second had past. "So?" he asked, lips brushing my forehead. I looked deeply into the dark shadows of his eyes, and saw the desire. He wanted me. wait... what? he wanted me? no one wanted me. Alright. I lifted my face and smiled. That moment, I handed him my kiss without another word. and then, it was gone. I couldn't take it back. It was his. The poison tasted better then I had imagined. But it didn't soothe a thing. salt in a wound, more like.

and those are just two. what are your moments? email me! I'd love to hear. :) curliefries@gmail.com

~ <3 Anna <3 ~